hey y'all!! (:

Looking back into all my posts, and I can't believe I've had this site for over 3 years, (almost to the day 10-16-2008). Reading at some of the old posts, I've grown as a person soooo much, I can't believe it. I can't believe that I've been stuck in this cycle for over 3 years! But it's helped me keep weight off, so I can't complain too much! (:

On a more recent note;

Today was an up and down sort of day. The past few days have been that way. Although my intake has stayed under 1000 calories, and my weight has gone down! My boyfriend & I have been bickering here and there, but I know we love each other, so at the end of the day as long as I'm falling asleep next to him, I know it'll be okay. Love does conquer all! I currently have 15 credit hours and about 20 hours a week at work.. which can be stressful. I have signed up for 16 credit hours next semester with the same amount of work hours, and am thinking about getting a position on the Exec Board of my sorority!! Event Planning is what I'm hoping for! (: It's so stressful, but I really want to make a difference for the chapter!!! And I might join another group at my school to help new students! & I'm tutoring a 4th grade boy every Tuesday, his name is Waylen and he is so cute!!

So my intakes & weigh ins for the past few days have been:

Monday; 107.8lbs, 600calories.

Tuesday; 106.4lbs, 910calories. (running as an outtake)

Today; 103lbs, 500calories.

So I hope tomorrows weigh in will be great(: Lets hope! 

HERE'S SOME THINSPO (:

As promised

and my absolute favorite/ most motivational picture:

have a great night

Alexxx

update from the phone :)

it hurts being Fat.

okay, so I'm not really "fat" but I have fat on my thighs & muffin top & washing them in the shower just jiggled them & it hurt. it was weird. Anyway, I'm busy, but I promised I'd put some pictures of me up, so I'm going to do that, these are from the past 2 or 3 weekends! (:

PS: I weigh about 106 right now & am 5'2" and want to be back at 102 by around halloween. #concentration.

If you can't figure out which one I am, look again (;

xoxo, Alex.

I will be SKINNY. ('spo)

I was 102 during recruitment. Back to 106 now. I will be at 100 by halloween and under it by Thanksgiving. I'm on my period so that's not helping my mood.. but it's becoming my favorite time of the year right now, and I will not give up. My boyfriend always calls me skinny, but it's not good enough, he says he doesn't want me to be skin & bones, & I don't want to be, but I want to be tiny.. I want to be envied even more than I already am. I want to see collar bones more prominently.. and on my shoulders... I want to see back bones, shoulder bones through my back.. I'm tired of my thighs barely kissing each other.. They can't touch.. I'm over feeling this way, I will look better.. Feel better.. Act better.. and BE BETTER than ever before.

Starting now, no tomorrow, no next week.. it starts NOW... & if you girls are the ones saying TOMORROW OR NEXT WEEK.. STOP.. YOU'LL KEEP SAYING IT.. SAY NOW & MEAN IT & DO IT..

now thinspo (: I will say what I like about each girl. (:

They both are so flat, and so happy.

I'd kill to have hair that long!

Long hair, don't care. Girl on the right is so tiny.. <3 her thighs.

My hair never looks that cute in a bun.. & her arms don't have fat even though she's squeezing them together.

I remember when I was that flexible ):

Tan & tiny.

Again with the long hair & not to mention tinyyyy arms<3

Flat stomach. 

Flat stomach & having funn.

Flat stomach with some definition.

Her thighs are squeezed together & look tinny.

Her shift is swallowing her.. and her arms are perfecttion

her arms and stomach are so small. envious.

I just love that hair style, need to learn how to do it!

only skinny girls can pull off those outfits.

Runners are always so perfect. legs, arms, stomach. Plus, flexible.. love it.

Can we just look at the thighs on the left? yah..

You can tell she's skinny without even looking @ her body.

Hollister <3 love it. and how her thighs have a huuuge gap!

Love those shirtss, and her bag, you can tell her stomach's flat!

She looks so tiny next to her boyfriend.. because she is!

This says it all.. honestly.

She's drinking, and still tiny.. that's impossible.

Tiny even in a big hoodie, and i love how I can see her hipbones just barely peeking out.

Tiny arms wrapped around a cuuute dog <3

Again, drinking & still skinny. Jealous.

I'm so stressed out, I should be studying, but all that's running through my mind is SKINNYSKINNYSKINNY.

That's all for now.

xoxo,

Alex <3

Comment, lets be friends &supporters <3

Forreal this time.